they told me to place
another birthday, another year
surrounded by my family and Friends
but I don't think I've ever felt this alone
I promised myself so many things
I'd do by this day, this year, this age
I hope I've been able to make myself proud
did I make it?
I would've asked myself this today
yes. yes, I did make it
but at what cost?
I wouldn't say I'm happy but
didn't I promise that to myself too?
or is this hollow hope all I'll ever get?
once, maybe, they were milestones
but all they'll ever be is
another candle on the cake